The Death of the Fool

10th December 2009

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I know its stupid and pointless, but sometimes...

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10th December 2009

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Bold what is true:

thechocolatebrigade:

1. I think my friends are beautiful and they make me feel ugly sometimes
2. I wish I was an only child
3. I want the world to be as it was when the Native Americans lived [paul, lol]
4. I wish I could tell people how I really feel, instead of running scared
5. My best friend is fake, and sometimes I don’t know why I’m friends with her [well, not my best friend. but one of them.]
6. The boy I’m currently infatuated with has me more confused than any other individual I’ve ever met
7. I’ve only been kissed by two boys, and I’m sure both of them regretted it later
8. I’ve thought about getting surgery to get rid of my gut
9. I wish I was Alice from Alice In Wonderland so that I have somewhere to hide
10. I’m lonely
11. I have no friends
12. I wish I didn’t post some stuff on the internet
13. I always find ways to make myself the center of attention
14. I hate most of my family for being so closed minded
15. I hate the town I grew up in for being such a bad influence
16. I’m scared of being alone
17. I hate my dad
18. I wish I could stand up to my dad
19. I wish I could be who I really am wherever I am
20. I wish I could tell someone something
21. I want to have a baby
22. I want to know what love feels like
23. I know I spend way too much time on my own, but I don’t feel I have enough social skills to do anything else
24. I have cut my wrist and hidden it under a wrist brace
25. I have had three consecutive dreams about one boy
26. I hate my mom for leaving my dad
27. College scares and confuses me
28. I am afraid to get romantically close to people even though it’s one of the biggest dreams I have ever had
29. I truly have NO idea what I really want to do with my life
30. I never want to disappoint anybody
31. I think all the little things that I don’t say anything about are building up again
32. I want to get out of this town
33. I’ve spent so much time pretending that I don’t know who I am anymore
34. My boyfriend thinks I’m suicidal. He’s right.
35. My friends think they know me. They don’t.
36. I stand on my head for nearly 20 minutes every day. It’s very relaxing.
37. I’m a compulsive exerciser.
38. I don’t approve of my best friend’s marriage and I’m her maid of honor.
39. I miss boy bands
40. I don’t think I’ll live past 30
41. I wake up every morning and have anxiety that I have to overcome to get up
42. I miss my ex, I love my ex, I hate my ex
43. I’d rather talk to your sister than mine
44. I love you
45. I have always questioned whether or not I have been in love
46. I hate where I let myself get to
47. I don’t feel like I have done anything with my life
48. I want to truly believe that I am loved. No ifs, ands, or buts
49. I hate that he is so far away and that I’ve already cheated on him twice
50. I’ve got abandonment issues
51. I work all the time to keep my mind occupied, it doesn’t work
52. I wish my ex-boyfriend would love me again
53. I want to lose 20 pounds, but lack the motivation [more like 10, but whatever]
54. Reading all these secrets break my heart
55. I sadden when I watch the news as well and see all there hatred that has filled the world, but I know the cause for which it is there
56. I’ve always wanted to tell my secrets but have never had the chance
57. I hate having people come to me for advice. I really have no idea what to say to you
58. I’ve came a LONG way this year. It’s a real accomplishment
59. I want to sleep with a guy just to take his virginity
60. I am so glad you and I are not together anymore and I blame you for the fact that I can’t trust anyone
61. I have lost all hope in humanity
62. I feel I am being constantly judged.
63. I worry too much about my weight. Every time I watch the Notebook, I worry that when I get a boyfriend, he won’t be able to lift me like Noah lifts Allie.
64. My ex’s mother and I still talk on a day to day basis without him knowing. She hopes he will realize what he lost, soon.
65. Every song on the radio reminds me of you
66. I don’t have a friend, anymore, than I can tell anything to
67. I am an excellent stalker
68. I act like I don’t care but I really do
69. College is the scariest and most fun I have ever had
70. I am bisexual. I am not accepted for this from my family. It bothers me.
71. When my parents were arguing when I was little, I used to hide in my room and pretend that I had a sister that was there with me and I’d talk to her. I did this so I wouldn’t feel so alone. I’m an only child.
72. I’m confident that if I lost a lot of weight that I would have a better life.
73. When I watch Law & Order SVU, I deeply fear that something similiar will happen to me or someone in my family
74. I can’t pee without the water in the faucet running
75. I would give my life for so many people, but I know half of them would not return the favor
76. I eat something that’s bad for me and then I feel so guilty about eating it that I won’t eat for days
77. Seeing people cry makes me automatically want to comfort them
78. I memorize random license plate numbers in case they’re ever needed in an investigation
79. I’m content with nothing more than one meal a day, love from those around me and the air in my lungs…everything else is just a plus.
80. I want to choose who my organs go to when I die. I hope that they are helping deserving individuals.
81. I travel partly because I want to be able to boast about the places I’ve been and the things I’ve seen and experienced.
82. I dislike married men who don’t wear wedding rings.
83. I don’t know what religion to believe in
84. I fish for complements to make myself feel better
85. Every time a person comes to my work counter still trying to decide what they want, I want to yell at them for wasting the time of the other customers in line. You may not know it, but they get pissed because of you and take it out on me!
86. I feel ashamed of bringing certain friends around other friends
87. I always feel like I’m not pretty enough, even with everyone telling me otherwise
88. I’m afraid she’s going to get him before I do. It’s selfish and I hate myself for thinking that. [not before. just at all.]
89. I made out with my best friend’s brother years ago. To this day, no one knows. [okay, if that was true, which is not, because none of my friends even HAVE brothers who i could make out with without it being creepy. theyre all younger]
90. I know it’s lame but I still love The Sims 2
91. I didn’t want to wake up this morning, because my dreams were better than reality
92. When I say I want to be left alone, I don’t always mean it, I just don’t know how to tell someone I need them
93. I have been in quite a few relationships, none of the guys were faithful to me, it makes me feel like something is wrong with me
94. He was my first love. I still don’t know if I was his. I hope I made a lasting impact on him as he did to me.
95. I am jealous of girls that have naturally good hair
96. I’m jealous of anyone who has a talent
97. I don’t drink. I don’t do drugs. I don’t want to. Get over it.
98. Going to parties make me more nervous than anything else.
99. I read postsecret every sunday hoping for familar handwriting
100. A day usually doesn’t go by without me thinking about him and wondering “What if he had chose me?”

9th December 2009

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Are you ready?

bored. trapped. lackadaisical.

i need a new hobby.

and not some bullshit thing for college.

i need a bloody fucking project.

i feel like every moment of my life should be spent like an episode of skins, but for some reason its like an episode of the office- amusing but lacking action.

the fact that i am relating my life to tv shows displays how little excitement i have in it.

the fact that i am on tumblr analyzing my life probably shows that too.

im such a suburban kid.

but im just goddamn bored!

i guess i could focus my energy into curing cancer.

but ill probably just bitch and moan and watch a movie to inspire me to do something wild with my life, but then realize i dont know what i want to do.

and then ill go to bed and go to school and figure out that i cant do anything anyway because im way too chickenshit.

whats the bloody point.

i think i make similar posts or statements on a monthly basis, so im sorry.

but then again, if i didnt post this, id be breaking the beautiful little routine i have, so why not.

9th December 2009

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Puck looks very sad. i feel sad. Poor puck. :(

9th December 2009

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Glee (train of thoughts)

Haha, this is a cute scene.

Holy crap that girl can singg.

Woah. Thats not how i was expecting that to go down.

9th December 2009

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Bold & Italicize:

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Rules:
- Bold all of the following TV shows which you’ve ever seen 3 or more episodes of in your lifetime.
- Italicize a show if you’re positive you’ve seen every episode of it.


24 
7th Heaven
ALF
Alias
American Gothic
America’s Next Top Model
Angel
Arrested Development
Babylon 5 
Batman: The Animated Series
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
Baywatch
Beverly Hills 90210 (original)
Bewitched
Bonanza
Bones
Bosom Buddies
Boston Legal
Boy Meets World
Brothers And Sisters
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Californication
Chappelle’s Show
Charlie’s Angels
Charmed
Cheers
Chuck
Clarissa Explains it All
Columbo
Commander in Chief
Crossing Jordan
CSI
CSI: Miami
CSI: NY
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dark Angel
Dark Skies
DaVinci’s Inquest
Dawson’s Creek
Dead Like Me
Deadwood
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dexter
Dharma & Greg
Different Strokes
Doctor Who
Dragnet
Due South
ER
Everwood
Everybody Loves Raymond
Facts of Life
Family Guy
Farscape
Fawlty Towers
Felicity
Firefly
Frasier
Freaks & Geeks
Friends
Fringe
Futurama
Get Smart
Gilligan’s Island
Gilmore Girls
Gossip Girl
Grey’s Anatomy
Grange Hill
Growing Pains
Gunsmoke
Happy Days
Hercules: the Legendary Journeys
Heroes
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Street
House
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Invader Zim
Invasion
Hell’s Kitchen
JAG
Jackass
Joey
Kim Possible
Knight Rider
Knight Rider: 2008 
Kung Fu
Kung Fu: The Legend Continues
La Femme Nikita

LA Law
Laverne and Shirley
Law and Order
Law and Order: SVU
Law and Order: CI
Leverage
Little House on the Prairie
Lizzie McGuire
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost
Lost in Space
MASH
MacGyver
Malcolm in the Middle
Married… With Children
McLeods Daughters
Melrose Place
Miami Vice
Mission: Impossible
Mod Squad
Monk
Mork & Mindy
Murphy Brown
My Life As A Dog
My Three Sons
My Two Dads
Mythbusters
NCIS
Ned Bigby’s Declassified School Survival Guide
Nip/Tuck
Numb3rs
One Tree Hill
Oz
Perry Mason
Power Rangers
Press Gang
Prison Break
Private Practice
Privileged
Profiler
Project Runway
Psych
Pushing Daisies
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)
Queer as Folk (UK)
ReGenesis
Remington Steele
Rescue Me
Road Rules
ROME
Roseanne
Roswell
Sanctuary
Scooby-Doo, Where Are You?
Scrubs
Seaquest DSV
Seinfeld
Sex and the City
Six Feet Under
Slings and Arrows
Smallville
So Weird
South of Nowhere
South Park
Spongebob Squarepants
St. Elsewhere
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1 
Starsky & Hutch
Superman
Supernatural
Surface
Survivor
Taxi
Teen Titans
That 70’s Show
That’s So Raven
The 4400 
The Addams Family
The Amazing Race
The Andy Griffith Show
The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Big Bang Theory
The Brady Bunch
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Honeymooners
The Jeffersons
The Jetsons
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Magnificent Seven
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Monkees
The Munsters
The Office (US)
The Powerpuff Girls
The Pretender
The Real World
The Shield
The Simpsons
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
The Twilight Zone
The Waltons
The West Wing
The Wonder Years
The X-Files
Third Watch
Three’s Company
Twin Peaks
Twitch City
Unfabulous
Ugly Betty
Veronica Mars
Weeds
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Will and Grace
Wings
Xena: Warrior Princess

i hadnt even heard of a lot of these shows, lol. not really my style.

9th December 2009

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Hi. I think im dying.

my neck is twice the size it should be.

holy crapola.